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Love Actually (Widescreen Edition)
By Chiwetel Ejiofor, Colin Firth, Gregor Fisher, Martin Freeman (II), Jill Freud, Hugh Grant, Sienna Guillory, Keira Knightley, Andrew Lincoln, Rory MacGregor, Heike Makatsch, Kris Marshall, Frank Moorey, Liam Neeson, Bill Nighy, Joanna Page, Lulu Popplewell, Nina Sosanya, Emma Thompson
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"People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway."
Mother Teresa, A Simple Path
I wish I could say that after reading that I had some awesome epiphany and suddenly found a new reason for living. I wish I could say that now I want to change and be the perfect person. I wish I could say a lot of things. But I can't.
Anyway, I still feel that it was worth sharing, and to me it did happen to give me a couple of minutes of "feel good" living. So, I hope it does the same for you. | | |
| I’m lost. Okay, so God, I’ve got a couple… wait no, a couple hundred questions. First of all, Where are you? Where have you been? Honestly. I know that I’m the selfish one who makes mistakes and everything, and I know that I should be looking for you in all things, but would it hurt to be a little more obvious once in awhile? Maybe I’m not as smart as you think. Why are these things happening to me? We called the police today. Is that what you wanted? Are you trying to tell me something? I don’t understand.
And hey, when am I supposed to take some occurrence as a sign, and when do I just assume it was coincidence? Or is there such thing as coincidence? And how do I know you’re there?
I told you I was lost. And I hate to admit that I’m lost in more ways than one. I’ve lost you. I don’t know how and I don’t know where. I can’t find you. Why? I lost the one part of me that I liked the most. I’m really scared right now.
I’m really afraid.
I’m not sure of anything anymore. I used to be okay with that. And another thing: is it okay if I don’t believe some things that I’m supposed to believe?
Would you be satisfied if I just believed in you?
Then again, I don’t even know that anymore.
I used to believe in a lot of things.
I used to believe that all people had goodness in them somewhere. Why don’t I see goodness anymore?
The truth is I only see people who piss me off.
And I seem to be using the phrase “I won’t see you in a year anyway”, a lot more frequently.
Except that “year” turned into “9 months” and now it’s “6 months”.
I thought I was okay with that.
Am I?
I promised myself not to let goodbyes be hard.
They won’t be, will they?
I hope not.
And the weirdest part is….. I think I’m okay with that. I mean, even if I tried to change it, could I?
It’s a big world, God, and I’m only one girl. | | |
| consider this: tomorrow you find out you have cancer. you have two years left. this ultimately means you will not go to college. so hey, what do you do? you live the life. you don't care what people think of you. you mouth off to your teachers. you don't need to do your homework, hey you're dying in two years! you stay out late into the night. you are daring. courageous. you say anything that comes to your mind. you go sky diving, riverrafting, bungee jumping -- anything you've ever dreamed of doing. you had more fun in those two years of living then any person will have in their lifetime. still, there's something missing.
okay, so you had fun.
but you missed out on experience.
on having a family.
and most importantly, on falling in love.
if you had a choice, what would you choose?
2 years of freedom, but a life without love?
or a life with love, but no freedom? | | |
| imagine this.
it's a beautiful, sunny day. i'm walking down this pier, wind blowing through my hair, and i suddenly stop walking to enjoy the view. i approach the side of the pier and end up leaning over the side in order to peer into the murky water below, just watching the waves roll in. suddenly, i hear a voice.
"you're not going to jump, are you?"
i turn and stare into the eyes of this stranger in utter amazement. first of all, i was shocked because the last thing i would do is hurt myself. and then i was also surprised that he had the courage to ask such a question.
it's amazing how a stranger can impact your life. i didn't know his name, and he didn't know mine. in fact, we knew nothing of each other. but there was something in his voice when he asked the question. he cared.
he looks at me inquisitively and i answer, "errr, no. never. but thank you." he smiles and turns away, and we are never to see each other again.
weird how one small person can just totally alter your perspective.
i begin to walk back towards the other end of the pier, and things have changed. i find myself viewing the world in a different light. i feel that now i know how to accomplish the impossible. now i know how to change the world. one person at a time. | | |
| it's amazing how confusing life can be. one minute you have this amazing self-realization, and you think, hey, this is it. this is what i'm supposed to be doing. i've finally found the reason why i'm here. and then the next moment comes suddenly....
you're hit by a bus.
not in a literal sense, but more of a bus called reality. will we EVER find our reasons for living? only god knows. but the truth is, maybe it's the journey that really counts. i know this may seem cliche, but isn't all of life cliche? isn't it just a neverending process that just continues with different people?
we all have problems. heck yeah, they may come in all shapes and sizes, but they're all there for a reason. to allow us to get through them. to grow. to understand. to live. and damn, we all know that they suck. but GET OVER IT. we all have 'em, they'll always be there. you might as well roll with the punches.
so far, this year has been amazing. i never knew there were so many wonderful people i hadn't met yet. and so many wonderful things i had never experienced. and maybe these little obstacles we have are there to make everything more beautiful.
i know a parent who has seizures. a sibling who refuses to live under anything but her own rules. i have friends who have lost a parent, a brother, a sister, or a friend. i know people dealing with divorce, homosexuality, drugs, and sex.
and hey, this is reality. it's not that wonderful lovey dovey mushy gushy nonsense that some people make it out to be, but it's life. and that's where we are. we're living it. we're living amongst war and violence, murder and rape, lies and deceit. nobody is who you think they are. there are times when a best friend can become an enemy, and an enemy can become a best friend.
it's just a mess of confusion and hatred,
and you're being pulled along for the ride.
it's all bitter.
it's all sweet.
but you gotta admit,
there's something beautiful about it.
there's something beautiful about bittersweet.
and maybe it's you. maybe it's all the people who have gotten through hell, and are still living as if nothing had happened. maybe it's the fact that we're here just to help each other. it's every moment that's unpredictable. and it's every minute that's an adventure. and how you get through it, never ceases to amaze me.
it's amazing how strong you are, when you need to be.
maybe it's just that this is real. this is really what life is. it's hard. it hurts. it's an obstacle after another. it's a million minutes of, "what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger".
and i wouldn't change a bit of it.
not one second.
and i wouldn't change it for the world.
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